Getting Back on the Right Path

I just wanted to first of all say "hello!" to anyone who is coming over from Jennifer's blog. Thanks for stopping by!

I guess I should update what is going on, so you guys can understand what's going on in our lives right now.

Back in October, but my husband and I got laid off from our jobs. We worked in for a small engineering firm, and since business was very slow, we both lost our jobs. I talked about it in this post and a little bit in this post. Right after we got laid off, God was pressing in my heart that this was the time for me to stay at home. Sure, I didn't expect it to happen that way, but God was telling me that I was where He wanted me.

Fear then took over and questions were raised. Questions like "How are our bills going to get paid?" and "Are you sure you really want me to stay home right now? This doesn't make sense." When the flesh took over and fear crept in, I decided to take a job that seemed perfect at the time. Both my husband and I over analyzed the situation (well, he over analyzed and I did what I thought was right at the time) and stepped out in our flesh instead of stepping out in faith and doing what God was telling me to do. Because of course, we know more than God does right?

Fast forward 6 months. This job that seemed perfect at the time is not so perfect any more. Sure this job is WAY less stressful than my last job, but my heart is not at peace. I am unhappy and bitterness started to creep in. I found little things to be annoyed at and my attitude really changes. Seriously, I am a different person at work than I am when I'm home.

This past weekend we had a wake up call. God totally spoke to us through some fantastic spiritual mentors and we spent the weekend searching His word and praying about some big decisions that needed to be made. The biggest decision was that I am quitting my job. Today I am giving my two weeks notice. Here is the comment that I left on Jennifer's blog to summarize what is going on in my heart:

I just wanted to comment on what you said about being called to the home. I have been called to my home as a stay at home wife for awhile now and I had the chance back in October, but my flesh caused so much fear, I decided to take a job that now I realize, I should not have taken.

This weekend God pressed it into my heart so much that I NEED To be at home, that I am giving my two weeks notice today.

Here's the rub; my husband is unemployed and we were really relying on my paycheck to help pay bills and buy food. Does it make sense for me to quit my job? Absolutely not. On paper, it looks impossible for us to make our bills, but that's not the issue. The issue was that for the past 6 months, I have been in direct disobedience for God's command for me to be home and now is the time for me to step up and take that step of faith and trust God to meet our needs. Am I scared? I'm totally scared, but I serve a righteous God that will take care of us and will bless us for taking this step of faith.

I'm sorry I posted this huge saga of what is going on, but when God is calling you home, you may want to sit and listen and take those steps to be home, no matter how scary it seems because God knows what's best for you and He WILL provide.

So there you have it. This is where my new journey begins. I am back on track and yes, I'm scared, but I am so thrilled to see what God will do. I just want Him to be glorified in this time.